And wish that that was me

So much to say but no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I?m getting used to it, you have to get used to it

I?ll devise the best disguise
A brand new look and take them by surprise
They?ll never guess what?s not inside

I?ll express myself with ease
With confidence and character complete
With fingers crossed they?ll talk to me

But I get carried away with every page
In every magazine
The cheaper the thrill, the deeper I fill
My head with blasphemy

So much to say but no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I?m getting used to it, you have to get used to it

I?ll destroy this useless heart
I?ll fuck it up so it?ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away with every phrase
And made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies
The more I disintegrate

So much to say but no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
Never get used to it, you just have to live with it